1 YEAR AGO!!!

About this time, 1 year ago, I was sleeping...after the epidural, and waiting for the baby to be born. I had screamed at all the dr's to just cut her out of me, but we waited and did it naturally instead.

You know, I have always had those little questions that rise up...Did we do the right things? What if I pushed for a c-section? What if we didn't wait so long at the end for help? What could we have done differently?

That is the question that I ask myself a lot. My answer keeps being...I wouldn't want any of it changed. I have learned so much about myself, and so much about God, so much about my husband and my family and friends. I learned how blessed my life really is.

I also have learned a great deal more...and that would include me knowing what I want to be when I grow up...also, learning about this great community that so many people judge...I have learned to be so much more open minded and so much less judgemental...like in the grocery stores...I feel for those parents who have to deal with so many more issues then we have ever had to handle.

I think that I have gained a great new perspective on life. Also, it has been amazing to see my faith grow so much. To see our prayers answered, and the prayers that will continue to be answered.

But mostly, I am glad to have had the chance to grow and bond and enjoy my last baby. The people that we have met through her, and the expressions on peoples faces when they see her, after reading her chart.

She is now playing peekaboo, she cruises on the furniture, she loves to blow kisses and also screaming at anyone who gets in her way...

"Isaiah 40:26 Look up into the heavens. Who created all the stars? He brings them out like an army, one after another, calling each by its name. Because of his great power and incomparable strength, not a single one is missing. 27 O Jacob, how can you say the Lord does not see your troubles? O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights? 28 Have you never heard? Have you never understood? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. 29 He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. 30 Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. 31 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint."

This is her, our 1 year old. Our last baby, our miracle, our Faith.